An Anonymous Comment Strikes A Chord...

When I started this blog I fully intended it to be a discussion. Also, I have to be honest, I started this blog because I wanted help. I wanted to talk about what I was going through. I wanted to know that somebody other than me struggles with these things. I am amazed at the outpouring of heart and soul I have had from readers. Today I was blown-away by a comment that was posted in response to the "Natalie's Story" post. Like the anonymous commenter, this story has been on my mind....A LOT! I would like to say thank you to whoever wrote this truly inspired comment. I needed it. I hope that as you read, you will also take the time to read the articles at the links she included. If you have something you would like to share, please comment or write me an email at barbhasmail@gmail.com. This is what she wrote:

I found this blog right when the first few posts were written. I was in search of it. I wanted to know there are people who understand. Many of the posts there have given me comfort and hope. One particular post has been on my mind a lot lately.

I haven't typically been one to open up, but I had to reply to it.

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I have never had to struggle with my emotions before my divorce and it has been somewhat of a rollar coaster. How do we get over the pain and let go of the past when it keeps popping up disrupting our life? You just want the flies to quit buzzing around your ears, your eyes, your nose, your food, your house, your family... You want so badly to put up a net where the flies can't get in...a safe haven where everyone is protected and comfortable. Sometimes they [the flies] go away for a little while and all is well in the world, but they keep coming back, and you keep getting disappointed... and then you come to realize the flies are here to stay. The exes come in our territory and mess up our routines, half our kids miss out on family vacations or holidays, and there is a division in the family you cannot deny, no matter how hard you try. I don't know, I'm new to this blended family club, but it seems to me you just have to get used to these "flies". I suppose it always takes time to get used to a new normal.

On the other hand, I sometimes catch a glimpse of how being a blended family has been so good for us, for all of us. We rely on the Lord, we adapt, we learn how strong each of us are, we work together, we grow, we blossom, we appreciate, we cherish, we love, we care. I can see that our trials have helped us learn and grow. There truly are pros and cons in everything, opposition in all things. One article I read suggests, "Since God’s greatest concern is our spiritual growth, and challenging circumstances often spur spiritual growth, perhaps life in a blended family is more “ideal” than we might suspect." You can read the full article here: http://www.ldsmag.com/article/1/8041.

Then again, being part of a faith that so strongly encourages the "ideal family"...and with good reason (Check out this article about why we Latter-Day Saints stick to the Ideal: http://thefamily.com/2011/11/15/the-perfect-family-why-we-latter-day-saints-mormons-stick-to-the-ideal/), you can see why it is such a rollar coaster of emotions for those of us who so obviously don't meet this ideal, and why it is such a devastating loss for those of us who once had that ideal and then somehow lost it.

Day by day, count your blessings, focus on what's most important, and WILL yourself to stay on the sunny side of life. It is impossible to come to Earth and feel no pain the entire time you are here. Pain is not an option. Misery is. The truth is...the flies are there for everyone. They may not be as visible to everyone, but we all have our struggles. And we mustn't let a few flies ruin our party.